Without Flash

what hurts.

2010-07-30T07:07:00.000-07:00

its never what you do
its never what you say
its never what you forget or even remember
its not the criticisms that you drop on my head
its my expectations of you
I expect you to do things..
I expect you to say things..
i expect you to remember or forget..

So why am i hurting myself?

Everything is Fake.

2010-05-02T23:00:00.001-07:00

For every moment that I have where I feel like I need to rap and be heard
I have countless moments where I just do not give a fuck. I used to want to rap because of the life that they painted for rappers: Cars, Money, girls, not a care in the world, right? But as I grew in years I found that even a care-free life comes with a price, and comes with its own set of worries and stressors and in actuality isn't really all that 'care-free'
I look at my grandparents...
i'd say they live "the life"
happy in their quaint little yellow house
watching the family that they raised grow and spread out into the world.
not a need in the world, just basking in love.
to me that's real. that's a real life.
this rap shit is so fucking fake to me.
i'm not even a pinky toe into the game and all i feel from it is negativity.
I always thought i'd just put my heart into these songs
and people would possibly love them and i'd be able to spread that love.
to a point where that was my only goal.
but i people don't want reality,
instead it seems that ppl want to live in hell, while constantly being shown pictures of heaven, which to me seems like the dumbest shit in the world.
completely unaware that the people showing these 'pictures' are only concerned with manipulating your thoughts so that you become a machine.
a machine to give them power and money.
the life that's broadcast to us via our little TV screens is not life.
life is whats going on. life is living. life is in emotions, life is in people
its not in these pre-packaged boxes labeled 'life' that show up on our doorsteps.
(got way sidetracked)
fuck it i'm going to sleep.

_mC

Top5InContinued:

2010-04-25T02:23:00.000-07:00

BluStyle:
RandomAsHellButHeresARealHonest
like,listOfMyTop5ThingsIDoNotFckWith1.TheAmountofTimeitTakestoMix2.Insecurities
3.Stringbeans4.beingWhipless5.BeingLikebull-_-;;;;;

bye.

_mC

ThankYou Lyrics(inc.)

2010-04-14T05:13:00.000-07:00

Shattered the mirrors-
image that I once had
of myself and seeing my face on the mags
about face, toss my old face in the trash
gram' told me 'bout this gift that I have for insight
so the deeper i'd search,
the further I got lost in God...no church
like every atom is a bomb waiting to burst
and every nerve ending of mine
just hurts for the truth and its use?
and weapon..but
MY 45. is all for all of us
seduced by the wants, if you got all ya need
then the war for your mind is lost, in the greed
lost in the speed of life...light speed
..drive slow, nigga GLC
redefine my...success as just peace
with everything I see but more-so me
and shouts to Kodi unseen for so long
said "we should chill and I really like ya songs"
so... I ..now know I connect
with that part of ya body... right about ya neck so...
feel free to move hips, move legs, move lips
tell folks bout...this
and this a thanks in advance
an unborn child's like an un-made fan..ThankYou

Man... I lost friends over dumb shit.
you ever lost friends over dumb shit?
I'm talkin bout..one minute you cool
and the next you got issues won't confront shit?
but ..who am I to question
in every loss I ever took, gained a lesson
silver lining that makes for golden rhymin'
(....)

_mC
GodLee mC
-ThankYou

Drop the World

2010-03-03T19:43:00.000-08:00

Its hard when family makes it hard to love em

"Skeletons in my closet
Demons in my past
but a song in my heart
and a dream in my grasp
gems that I drop, its a present in my raps
sincerely me, not signed but autographed"
_mC

Uh-Oh.

2010-02-22T22:14:00.000-08:00

Uh-oh

::opens chest...looks inside::
Hmm...
::closes chest::

:-/

_mC

.Because that's the language I speak in.

Suffering.

2010-02-07T21:14:00.000-08:00

Suffering is fed
'"foods' that feed our suffering are toxins
we must not ingest toxins.
no matter how good they may taste
because in the long run, we only end up eating away at ourselves.
and our capacity for joy.
Some people just got an appetite for destruction.

Zen.

_mC

Soo...

2010-02-05T23:28:00.000-08:00

the little things have the biggest effects on meh sometimes
that middle child thing man...>_<;;
my psyche...my psychology man...
and me looking out into this abyss aint helping a thing.
I need more stability.
i'm just going to get lost in meditation on it and hopefully it makes me feel better.
seek.
then solve.

peace.

_mC

With Love from mC(2008) / Chill Music(Songs About Jane) (2009) & Thoughts.

2010-02-03T23:04:00.000-08:00

Figured I might as well re-post my previous works "With Love from mC" and "Chill Music" (and some thoughts) while I work on my 2 new projects dropping sometime this year.
Hopefully you can see the progression between these 2 projects and I hope that you'll see the continuance of that in my newer projects dropping this year.

With Love, From mC (2008)

Download: http://usershare.net/4fhxbop2sjk4

Tracklist:
1. Leave a message (Twin)
2. Amzing
3. Leave a message (Supreme)
4. mC @ Work
5. MD
6. Leave a message (Mel)
7. Joints
8. Leave a Message (Mouse)
9. Supa mC
10. Roommate Stories
11. Say it Aint So. ft. HB
12. Leave a Message (Styles)
13. Save a Spot
14. Leave a Message (Duraleen / Ice)
15. No Savior

Thoughts:
When I listen back to this project, I remember the super sincere feeling of just wanting to rap. I just wanted to rap and have something to call my own. Having just saved up the $400 required to build me a decent recording set-up from scratch, I did exactly that. Most of these songs are either just one verse or one verse and a hook because I couldn't wait to get these pieces of music out. I didn't even care if they were finished or mixed, I just wanted people to hear what I could do, and get a taste, even if they didn't get the whole entree'. In addition to that, I had randomly recorded all of my messages one day, and realized that they each corresponded to a song and I placed them accordingly. Aside from my recordings in high school (which I vow to never let see the light of day) this is the starting point for all things mC.

Chill Music (2009)

Download: http://usershare.net/gmn6akinll9q

Chill Music.
1. Intro
2. Don't Save Em
3. Falling for a friend / falling in
4. Doing something you regret
5. Missing that person
6. being on some other stuff, acting like you don't care lol.
7. Lost You
8. Don't Care About 'em
9. Occupying your mind with something else completely
10. Sh.Outro

Thoughts:
With this project, I sat for a long time with the collection of tracks that I'd made since the release of 'With Love...' and listened to them repeatedly, and tried to understand what the songs were saying overall, and one day (#whilst) it occurred to me that this set of songs told the story of a relationship, So I sequenced them accordingly.
I wanted to branch out and try things on different soundscapes (Worst Kind of Love) and I also wanted to make more structured songs (Just a Model, College Route) to show that I'd been putting in some technical work as well. I'm usually ultra critical of my stuff, but I think the project as whole represents my emotional states, mindset, and life over the course of the couple of months, and what more could you ask for from a piece of art?
The Bonuses consist of my favorite songs that I didn't think went with the theme/mood of the project. I had to put 'em out cause they were songs that I felt strongly about, so I figured people who listen to my stuff might enjoy 'em.

Hope you enjoy these, I put a lot of work into them.
and feel free to shoot me some feedback so I can make an even better product next go 'round.
'Precciate the love and support.

_mC (make Change*)

Gospel Music

2010-01-29T21:54:00.001-08:00

...Speaks to your heart and soul.

Today after work ~~I listened~~ this talked to me.

and here's a video to make todays blog interesting:
[Click here if you can't see the video]

_mC

P.S. Erykah I love it!
R e T U R N o f T h e A n K H 3/30/2010A.D
I even love the energy of the release date.
I see you, Most High.

My G

2010-01-23T22:28:00.000-08:00

This is my G, one of the people who give my life meaning.

This is me and my G.

I get to see her this week, and that makes me happy.
Did Christmas come early?

fin.
_mC
even tho' shes blowing me* as of me typing this.
*not like that

Blu/ Talking too Much

2010-01-23T20:50:00.000-08:00

Blu

After spending the latter part of my work day with a few cuts from Blu's Below the Heavens, The Lifted EP, and GODLee Barnes'(Blu) Open instrumental LP. I realized that what KanYe West was to my musical tastes, Blu has become.
and by that I mean a rapper/producer who is head and shoulders above the competition as my current favorite artist. Consistent quality work, Constant style evolution and switchage, and prolificness (dictionary.com says that's a word). Not lil Wayne prolific, but I def. don't think he needed to be on the cover of the Vibe freshman issue having dropped several mixtapes and ALBUMS.
long story short... imma fan.
He's inspired a lot of the direction for my upcoming proyecto but I don't wanna talk about that.

dude got it.
fin.

I'm even growing my own version of the Blu Fro.(see what I did there?)

----------------------------------------------------------
Talking too Much

I think(fear) that I am becoming the most introverted person I've ever met.
My desire to be with people is dwindling as quickly my faith in everything human.
Its kind of created this odd mental space for me. I feel so far (gone)removed from things that I feel a little like a ghost.
There's only a handful of people who I even feel are worth my words, feelings and thoughts.
Being friendly is painful sometimes.
I should probably just blame my expectations of people, like
with anything and anybody, if you're let down enough you start to just not care.
now combine that with a heart hell-bent on helping (read: saving the world) and what do you get?\
bars like this:
"in this galaxy of conscious minds/ I feel the closest to the edge of the universe
being human hurts, with the spirit of an angel, viewing from high angles..."

&&

thoughts like this:

my desire to speak is at an all-time low.
yet my desire to be heard is at an all-time high

which kind of completely fucks up the whole aspiring hip-hop artist thing but that's another blog(that I'll probably never write).
fin.

_mC

P.S. Niggas be talking too much

The Maker.

2010-01-17T20:38:00.000-08:00

I used to be a maker of fools until I became one
or [rather] was made one,
promise I aint the same one
seeing how the days run, just like game
before, I never could complain
until you're in pain, outside of the window pane
wishing for an end to the rain.
eyes left cloudy, and shirts lefts stained.
[heart]broken like a bone, but its a muscle so its strained.
and then I start to think
How many "YOU"'s i'd left the same, or
in the same state.
[now] I promise I can relate
due to a shot of Karma, with a twist of fate....

_mC

What do these lines mean?

2010-01-16T07:58:00.000-08:00

What do these lines mean?
"In this galaxy of conscious minds, I feel the closest to the edge of the universe"

spoiler[+]

_mC

stomach virus.

2010-01-11T09:17:00.000-08:00

been kicking my ass
:(
that is all

_mC

Something From the Archives.

2010-01-02T10:11:00.000-08:00

In Order to start the New Year right, I decided to give myself some creative space.
My hard drive and Pro-Tools files looks like someone just threw a bunch of random folders together and called it a day. I don't even have one main folder that all of my Pro-tools files are in!
*sigh*
So I'm deleting them all... (sadface) but NOT before bouncing out all of the songs/verses/hooks and everything else worth saving.
Heres one of those such bounces...
mC-LikeThis ... this is a song that i started on Asher Roth's Lark On My Go Kart but never finished for whatever reason:

*Click to Listen/ Download*
mC-LkeTht(LarkOnMyGoKart).mp3
Enjoy!

Lyrics:
Look,
And its just like that, and that is like this
and this is like no other youngin' that exist
Pull my card, feel free to Go fish
cause aint a line bit, and i aint lying a bit
lets call that a flip, I sampled myself
Rhymes so soulful ample my shelves,
as for my shelf, metaphor for lane
I take off labels making that plane/plain
making me 'caine, where all yall jane
doe/dough I gotta spill so i can sustain
yea, you know the name Mr. Make Change
a cunning linguist beats I give brain
dim-witted rappers, no need to explain
I am the de-light like a sugar hill gang
/
and its just like this,
and this is like that
and that is like no other dude that rap
in fact, i'm a bac-
teria, tearin' ya, on the hunt like a terrier for the cream
used to trade that off for clothes by Supreme
now its just that in my genes,
passion it beams from my palms, a tiger shot
in my mind, I street fight down writers block
to slide the cock, up in there, up in hear/here
wake 'em all up i'm the sun/son, the heir/air,
the moon, the stars that shine, they all align
to see little bro rhyme after all this time...
i'm sayin...

_mC

(Happy New Years btw!, maybe I should do a new years post?)

The Little things in life.

2010-01-01T23:02:00.000-08:00

Like Swiff D dropping a beattape!?
Like Blu Dropping an EP!
anyways these things make me very happy.
That is all, continue.

--update--
So I Google "What is existence"
and what comes up is that exist comes from a Latin word which literally means "To stand out"...

_mC

Don't Wanna Let Go.

2009-12-31T08:03:00.000-08:00

I LOVE/HATE The Narcissism Machine

2009-12-21T20:22:00.000-08:00

Narcissism:(def.) -self-love: an exceptional interest in and admiration for yourself;

Now, with myself, there exists this intense love/hate relationship with TWITTER, but for the longest time I could NOT figure out why I'd even describe my relationship with an inanimate object, let alone a social networking website as love/hate.
I mean sure people are annoying as hell, that's a very consistent thing in life, but that never made me NOT want to get on facebook or myspace (maybe the spam on myspace but not the ppl). So what is it about this little twitter box that drives me up a wall?

nothing to do with the blog post

I love the aspect of instant communication with a lot of different people, so for a while I likened twitter to an oldschool* AOL-esque chatroom. Log on. See what people doing, update your followers on what you're doing, interact and take it from there.
From twitter has come plenty of spontaneous meet-ups, LOTS of comedy, news updates, sports scores, award show happenings, up to the minute music drops, and countless other discussions that happen in real-time that allows one to stay up to date on everything that doesn't matter in this world. We get to keep in touch with all of our friends who we can't see regularly and hell we even get to talk and interact with our favorite famous people!

So where does the 'hate' part of the equation come in?

I think it has something to do with a combination of the 140 character limit and the ability to retweet. (someone re-posting what you've posted to show that they agree or display their thoughts on it)

Can you really share an in-depth idea or concept in 140 characters?
Maybe you can share some noble or wise saying, but even that lends itself to the narcissism; cause you really just want your wisdom to be seen, heard and acknowledged.

again, absolutely nothing to do with the blog post.

and thus we've arrived!
It seems like twitter subconsciously enhances the desire to be heard.
What did we do with all of these random and pointless thoughts that occurred before there was twitter?
We kept them to our damn selves**! but twitter gives each and everyone one of us a platform to be heard and this feeds into the DESIRE to be heard, and each retweet is a person in the "audience" reaffirming that someone is out there "listening" to your random thought process, encouraging you to go on and on about whatever it is that you was talking about.

Did I mention that in about 80% of tweets the subject is the tweeter?
"I'm doing this..."
"I think this..."
"My this does this..."
"I, Me, my..blah blah blah"

multiply this time the #ofFollowers and you've got a twitter timeline that often resembles being slapped over the head with a collection of up-to-the-minute autobiographies that you didn't ask for*** in the first place***.
(and for the record I am not claiming to be a saint amongst sinners)
&that shit be annoying
...thus...my love/hate relationship with twitter is explained.
thanks for reading my rant

_mC

*feels weird referring to something in the late90's early 2000's as "oldschool"
** or shared with a SELECT group of people ie; friends, someone around you, etc.
*** but maybe you did ask for this by being on twitter?

P.S. now let me go feed The Narcissism Machine so it can poop out the good feelings that come with a comment.

Life.

2009-12-21T15:57:00.000-08:00

Sometimes Life amazes me
I've been on these spiels about how humping until you shoot off in a girl amazes me in how that makes life or A life, but I guess I'm just amazed by life period.
How do the trillions of atoms in the universe converge in a very specific way to create a conscious mind?
I think being conscious amazes me.
But even more than that, the ways in which humans subconsciously imitate the polar energies within the atoms that our bodies consist of is amazing.
ya know
Protons--->Positive...add...good...protagonist...etc.
Electrons--->Negative....subtract....bad...antagonist...etc.
Neutrons...Neutral.

And all of these atoms which create out conscious minds have been here billions of years before our minds came into existence.
kinda makes ya think.

end train of thought.

_mC

This...

2009-12-18T23:12:00.000-08:00

...is going to seem random as hell
but my homegirl Blaine has the illest profile picture in the facebook universe right now:

Have a nice day.

_mC

Thoughts.

2009-12-09T18:43:00.000-08:00

In order to change who you are
you must become someone who you are not
you must do things that "you" wouldn't do.
things "you" were afraid of doing
things "you" are unaccustomed to doing
conquer fear and pursue discomfort
ask not who you are
ask who have you made yourself into.
change who you are and you'll change your life.
_mC

Poem #1

2009-12-06T06:00:00.001-08:00

The winds of change blew and I remained
making me the last leaf sitting high upon his branch of virtue
I changed my mind about being around.
In places of darkness where hope is a memory
make yourself forgotten.

_mC

Jane

2009-12-01T07:44:00.000-08:00

New Music project written and recorded by myself
Hope ya'll enjoy!

(Click to download)

(Click to download)

http://usershare.net/e7qgyy8y117z
http://usershare.net/e7qgyy8y117z
http://usershare.net/e7qgyy8y117z

Production includes:
Drew Kid
Dj Jazzy Jeff
...Focus
Nottz
Mark Ronson/Salaam Remi
6th Sense
Haz Solo & June Bug...
and Mash-Up Productions
40

and I appreciate all the love & support as I grow as an artist.
Hope ya'll enjoy.
& leave some feedback, thoughts, opinions, all that!

_mC

Nobody knows.

2009-11-21T11:35:00.000-08:00

How much time had I spent sitting alone in the dark analyzing this world around me?
How much time had I spent sitting alone in the dark analyzing myself and how I created this world around me?

_mC

Track by Track #3 (Say it Aint So/ Save a Spot/ No Savior)

2009-11-17T09:40:00.000-08:00

(Click to download)

Say it Aint So-
(scratches record)

Chill Music(...Songs about Jane)
coming soon!

that is all

_mC

2 Sides (Open Wounds pt. 2)

2009-11-08T09:29:00.001-08:00

I was gonna explain myself
but I don't owe niggas shit.

'Cause whilst partying, whilst saving one of those 'I can't believe this picture exist' pictures from existing... because of my thoughts like ' I wouldn't want somebody doing that to me' it occurred to me.
Am I the only one thinking about someone else?
yeah...
I owe a couple young ladies A LOT of things.
but I don't owe niggas shit.

Kthanksbye! ;)

_mC

Track by Track #3 Joints/ Supa mC

2009-11-06T22:46:00.000-08:00

With Love, from mC

(Click to download)

Joints-
"Joints" was a song that I honestly recorded randomly as hell, word kinda sorta got around that I rap and to make a long story short, I hooked up with my friend Eddie to record on his equipment. Its no big secret that I love myself some woman; and this was my song to my woman at the time. I just didn't want to make it overly and outwardly lovey-dovey.
So here's 1/2 of the first verse and I think you'll clearly get what I mean.

"At the bar taking more..shots that Sean Bell
friends saying i've OD'd homie I can't tell
hit mademoiselle..."pour me another"
'till I hit mademoiselle and we forget the rubber
so raw in our love I came...
to a conclusion
she'll make ya eyes pop out like houston
she'll make 'Ye put some sing on it (808's & Heartbreak?)
shiiit..she'll make Jay put a ring on it (Jay-Z/Beyonce...Single Ladies?)"

But this was def one of those night where everyone was just chillin in the room and I was recording..good times...good music
and I just hope ya'll agree and maybe can relate to having a 'joint' of your own.

Supa mC-
See now, sometimes you do a song and you just know. You do a song and you hit the playback button and it gives you THAT feeling. After that you say to yourself "ok lemme give a day and see how I feel about it" because when you make music, a lot of times you need to step away from the song and clear your mind of things, come back to it and listen with a refreshed ear. When I say this song passed all of my tests with flying colors, I mean it. Now I'm not going to go on and on because if anything I just wish ya'll would hear the track and decide if its hot(or hotter) for yourself. But this is def. one of my favorite cuts on the project. Its more of a concept-less/rapping for the sake of rapping song..but I think I did a pretty decent job...
if any has DJ Jazzy JeFF's emil by all means feel free to sned it to him.

'til next time!

_mC

Open Wounds

2009-11-04T20:32:00.000-08:00

Dear blogger...

I don't want to be some bitter young fuck, shooting out subliminal thoughts to let people know how I feel anymore. I thought that doing so would be a good way to cope with the emotional turmoil and make me feel better, but its only turned me into something i'm not. I'm not this guy who enjoys negativity in any way shape or form, and I never have been, but when faced with such a betrayal how does one react? Vengeance in mindset...(or so I've heard...)and I'm not going to lie, I've sat... and thought to myself "How can I make this person feel the way I feel, or hurt the way i've been hurting?", and I came up with a couple of answers, but upon the first leg of putting them into action I caught myself, and realized that this is just not the person that I am.
a monster.

So instead I tried to just bury the hatchet and prematurely be beyond what I was feeling. So I smiled, and exchanged kind words, all the while bearing this seemingly inescapable weight. I knew I was not happy with this person, yet I put up the facade...which only kept the wound open. And served to make me something that I am not.
fake.

(to be cont'd)

_mC

without FLASH!

2009-11-03T14:14:00.000-08:00

Twinfolk x Traceface

'Twinfolk x Self'

'Burn After Rolling'

'Walk in the Park'

Lady Friends

'Jimmys sChoos'

Big Sean x Wale at Howards homecoming

'Greyscale' ~ a charcoal drawing/self portrait by H.Assebe

'Falling'

Some pics from the past couple of months.
enjoy!

_mC

Track-by-Track #2 - mC@Work / MD

2009-10-22T07:11:00.000-07:00

With Love, from mC

(Click to download)

mC@Work(Prod. DJ Jazzy Jeff)-
This song is the oldest song on the project, recorded in cool edit pro at my house(Waldorf) in my computer room one day. I heard the beat and it really reminded me of older hip-hop scenes with an emcee and a DJ rocking the stage. From there, I just wrote a rap. I feel like as a 'rapper' you have to just have the ability to rap (read: go on and on with clever metaphors, and flows), period. So this wasn't one of those super deep, complex,emotional or overly thought-out records. My aim was just to RAP. I always think my lines go over ppls heads, true or not ::Shruggs:: but heres some of my favs from the track:

"the measure of a man, yes sir, the liter/leader is back"

"... ok, i murder beats just to put it plainly, no Mook
hit it, get ghost but no spooks,
flows proof, liquor imitation but no spoof"

"hot like texas pete, you'll get a tan standing next to me
you'll get a brand standing next to me
no louie V, b-b-b-bitch..you can ask the greeks".

In addition to that, I felt the sincere need to throw in some Fresh Prince of Bel-Air references just because it was a DJ Jazzy Jeff produced track. The hook/bridge/chorus was really supposed to be my idea of just rocking out on stage, and giving the DJ some time to do his thing... added a little 'back and forth' to give the feeling of an interaction between emcee and DJ;...
and there you have it; mC@Work.

MD(Prod.???)-
This is one of those jams where it got written, and put into the stash and sat on. The instrumental is from a MURS song about his hometown of LA, so I decided to flip it in a similar fashion, starting off with what happened to be happening a lot at the time"

"Ridin' shotgun in the whip/
lighting up a spliff/
celly lighting up my hip..."

and to be honest, this was probably going to remain in the stash until I got to writing the hook, usually these are honestly the most painstaking part of writing for me, but this one really came with ease, and after it was recorded, I pretty much fell in love with it.
Ant asked me why I static-ed out certain words in the verse,
but around that part of the verse i'm talking about.. like future fashions..and then I go on to say how "I won't spill" due to jocking-ass biting-ass niggas.
but...this (like mC@Work) honestly really isn't that deep, just a shoutout to my home state of Maryland.
the second verse went more into specifics of the state, but it never got fully completed, so I just cut it after the hook and exported from Pro-Tools.
and there ya have it; MD.

_mC

Despite.

2009-10-21T21:02:00.000-07:00

The scars on my brain.
the brand(s) on my memory.
the damages to my trust.
the lies in my ears.
the misuse.
the pitfalls.
the losses.
the lack of understanding.
and the constant reminder of it all.
...
i'm not gon' cry.

_Michael

Track-by-Track#1: Cover /Amzing ft. Mouse & Supreme (Prod. KanYe West)

2009-10-19T14:08:00.000-07:00

With Love, from mC
(Cover)

(Click to download)

Cover:
In my own mind I'm always on some artsy fartsy shit and I pick different symbols, colors, items, etc; to express my innermost thoughts/emotions. With the cover of this project I really wanted the giving motion to be understood ((c)title) and after a couple of maybe's, I found this image and thought it captured the feeling exactly. I loved the tape because before mp3's, iPods, CDs and CD players there was a Walkman..which played these awesome little tapes. And around this era was when I found myself starting to REALLY enjoy music. So in that way it symbolizes a start of things.
The color was originally minus the reddish-tint on the tape, but as time went on, the entire time frame during which I made these songs started to have a different personal meaning because of relationships with people changing and other happenings in my life.

The significance with red is that, I associate that time period with a major romance in my life, which ended. But even more-so a car accident, which I suffer these graphic flashbacks from, and in these flashbacks I just see red everywhere. So in what mimics a coping strategy, I released these 'old' songs..in order to 'release' my mindstate from those times and stresses.

Amzing ft. Mouse aka the Waldorf Poster Boy & Supreme

My verse on this song was meant to represent something of a come-up, but not in the traditional sense. Instead of coming into any type of fame or fortune, its really just coming into a favorable light period and as a person who hasn't always had the best self-esteem its a little triumphant, but without losing the feeling of past, more bleak realities.

"Dimes tend to get drunk and tell me they like my swag/
and if that was you, you'd probably say that trying to brag/
but me? ...that just balances out the bad, luck I had/
with scaliwags all in my past/ but i'm past all the bitterness"

To me lines like that illustrate, basically that I wasn't always the hot shit on the block, so from that... to this.
and then the line at the end:

"plus i'm, oh so, honest when revealing it/
(w)rappers just good at concealing it...amazing

is just supposed to be off of some 'I'm not a rapper... i'm a emcee/mC" type shit.

So I hope that gives everyone a little insight.
next: Track-by-Track #2 mC@work / MD

_mC

With Love...

2009-10-18T07:03:00.000-07:00

via: www.mC-bsides.blogspot.com

#Random
But here's a little project I put together during my previous semester.
These tracks are a little rough/unmixed/incomplete
but they were all made in love.
Over the next 2 or so weeks i'll give some commentary on each of the tracks
Enjoy!
With Love... from mC (The Red Tape)

Dedicated to everyone who ever loved, music, another or life...

_mC

P.S. Somethings you never learn! ::smacks face::

Complicated like.

2009-10-12T20:58:00.000-07:00

simply
shits complicated like a young man being left heartbroken
only to realize that he'd become just like those who he'd left the same way in the past
like.
expecting a straight answer but my mind works in circles so i can't really seem to give it to you like that
like.
All those things you never said while I cared to hear them, falling like rain upon my deaf ears...until they started to flood my thoughts
like.
keeping it to yourself, only to (we)blog and hope everyone finds out how you feel.
like.
How i'm intentionally not a good friend..cause they wasn't 'good' friends...but instead of making myself or things better, it only makes everything worse(r)
like.
How I need space..and someone offering a helping hand
like.
I wish I could disappear...and be everywhere
like.
life.

_mC

2009-10-05T05:49:00.000-07:00

Enjoy the beat while it lasts,
I thought to myself as I watched the plunge.
My heart had bid its farewell to the rest of my being
choosing death over this life.
Using what strength I had left, he cut himself out.
my wounded sternum a diving board
the concrete beneath my feet an Olympic sized swimming pool.
stretched his arms out over his head readying diving position.
step.step.step.bounce.bounce.
splat.
a little writhing in pain,
but he had endured so much that this final bit was relief
goodbye.

_mC

PS.
IDon'tFeelSoGood:(

Kid Cudi (Light side)

2009-09-23T09:51:00.000-07:00

...Kinda sorta expressed exactly the shit I be on.

Very few things phase me because I am | | | | |[{not}]| | | | | | on this planet.
Mentally I've come to exist on a plane that allows me to see all life as trivial and meaningless.
So to counteract this, I give my life meaning on a daily basis and strive to be strife free.

_mC

PS.
...but maybe I'm just pon de gangja
but since I'm not i'll just (p)resume that I be on that other sht.

The Lonely Stoner.

2009-09-13T21:26:00.000-07:00

I often find myself, solo in the rafters, examining people, words, actions. Its almost surreal, watching the real world. So, like a TV show I watch the plots play out, the twists, the turns, people smiling for the camera only to reveal their ugly side when they think no one is looking...right.
Or maybe your the big brave hero, and nobody sees the chinks in your armour?
Either way..the majority of what I see I don't like...
So I just keep to myself, my lack of words is rarely nothing to say...
Encapsuled in my own.
Who am I to judge.
who are you...
....to free his mind at night.

_mC

Pretty Girl...

2009-09-12T12:33:00.000-07:00

[via www.mC-bsides.blogspot.com]

...don't frown when you see me.

and of course that doesn't make any sense..but maybe those words might hold some relevance sooner or later.
This cut that i'm taking out of the vault pretty much came from my long nights waiting tables, my man YB knows EXACTLY what i'm talking about.
I tend to zone out and observe my surroundings (possibly due to my studies*) when i'm at work, because its almost weird, I think about how everyone who works here ended up here and things of that nature. Just on some "I'd hate to still be working this job if i was in my 30's " type of stuff.
So I took that basic feeling, and talked about it from a perspective of someone who's dropped out of college and is at said job, just feeling a little desperate. I feel like people can relate to something like that.
plus i mean niggas be rapping...all that
but anyways here it is:
complete with BSU theme'd Artwork;

http://usershare.net/3k1bd8w5e2tv

_mC

*Horticulture

mC - TMA

2009-09-06T07:16:00.000-07:00

[via www.mC-bsides.blogspot.com]
This is a track I did around about the middle of summer, I had these 6th Sense beats and this one was always one of my favorites out of the bunch. So I decided to do some work to it.
The title of this track is a small play off of TMI (too much information), because music is therapy and in therapy you just express yourself...hence TMI. But, as any person who's tried to extract some truly critical 411 from me, can tell you... its coded.
So lines like " Don't Argue/Could've been that closet I hit or some lawsuits" refer to my old "Rihanna" and I couldve really been on some Chris Brown shit..but redirected and the outcome of that's just a scar on my hand. So there's really just a lot of little things like that, my insecurities, my drug habits, etc etc.
and the hook is just really self explanatory "these aint just rhymes/ see this is my art, so take some time..and take me apart".
In addition to that some...expirimentation with the mixing. etc etc.
I got like 3-4 other songs done on 6th Sense beats so I whenever I finish/mix those, and create some cover/backcover art i'll release a little mC x 6th Sense Project.
Enjoy!(click the pic):

http://usershare.net/yuf4uw395ha3

Blog Entry.

2009-09-04T22:24:00.000-07:00

I see a little bit of God in us,
such unbridled love;

_mC

So I wrote this weBlog for you.

2009-08-05T07:00:00.000-07:00

Since I've actually been doing what I've set out to do, I figured it was ok for me to chill a little bit and attempt to rekindle what was long lost with this weblog,
I remember this (weblog) used to be full of life;
Pictures.
Poetry.
photoshops.
Music.
And it offered a little insight into what I was thinking.
it was like a one stop shop for all things mC (that's Mr. Claiborne to you tho')
So, I wrote this weBlog for you...
*ahem*
*crackeds knuckles*
*Opens flickr.com, Photoshop, Picasa, and iTunes*

"Steps"

I'm still taking steps,
To discover yourself is one journey,
Made through interactions with the world, and those around you.
To discover yourself as an artist on the other hand is completely different.
I feel like you have to both be your biggest fan and your biggest critic.
How does this even work?
I don't know... somehow, but I promise you when you get to my 'art' portion it'll be my sincere and honest best attempt at letting everyone understands myself, people like myself and our views. Cause when you express its never just you, its just us. Thats what allows people to relate.
But i'm rambling, and i'm sure Dana will point out something that i've spelled wrong lol

_mC

P.S. This entire entry was a metaphor.

Sorry...

2009-07-20T09:32:00.000-07:00

I know you love me...
but i'm breaking up with you
very publicly...
maybe i'll be back
maybe I won't...
in all honesty i don't know

but I love what we had
I just gotta go get something else.

_mC

Day1

2009-07-06T16:49:00.000-07:00

"whole 'lotta cute friends that I lust on the low
don't ask me my thoughts, you don't just wanna know
you got this ego..and just want it to grow...
like...how I end up friends with a perfect 10?"

_mC

With Love...from mC Vol. 2

2009-07-05T10:58:00.000-07:00

Moonlight and fireworks.
what I need exactly...

lemme go get that, i'll be back...

_mC

This might break a whole bunch of [n-word] rules...

2009-06-19T07:30:00.001-07:00

But someone please explain to me in great detail this saying 'bros over hoes'.
not that I necessarily disagree with the statement, but I feel like people have started to use this as a blanket 'fix' or reply for any and all situations involving triangular disputes with guys and girls.
well, honestly not that It needs that much explaining
I figured that the general rule of those is to look out for your 'bros':

brother(s) -
1. a male with the same parents as someone else; "my brother still lives with our parents"
2. a male person who is a fellow member (of a fraternity or religion or other group); "none of his brothers would betray him"
3. a buddy: a close friend who accompanies his buddies in their activities
*feel free to pick any definition that applies to you*

over lookin' out for said 'hoes'

Hoe(s)-
1. A skank
2. A woman that is too loose in the booty.
3. Woman or man that fuck anything with two legs.
*again, feel free to pick any definition that applies to you*

and thats certainly understandable, but the confusion in this comes from all the forged 'brotherhood' amongst social circles
and the assumed 'hoe-ness' of young women.

does 'bros over hoes' apply to your mom and dad?
how about does it apply to your sister(s) and whoever they are dealing with?

my whole point is to say:
before people toss around the 'bro's over hoes' all willy nilly, one should take a sincere look at what where they stand in relation to other people. because you could be saying bro's over hoes
but my man Ludacris says
"Most of us niggas is hoes too..."
So what you really saying?

_mC

Vs.

2009-06-14T09:59:00.000-07:00

I just want to tell one person everything...

...but I can settle for telling everyone nothing.
I guess this is the end result of those things.
_mC

Sooooo blog.

2009-06-08T22:20:00.001-07:00

What's up?
How are you doing?
thats cool...
Did I tell you that I been struggling with some things lately?
I mean of course always...but some things in particular got me bent outta shape.
Its like... my sanity is fighting against my image.
My image says 'chill'
my sanity says... 'blow this joint up'
metaphorically of course...
but tomorrow's gonna be a good day...
and i'll have plenty of pics to share with you blog.
you remember when i used to post pics off the regular?...
yeah I got my camera (and some time) back...so lets go back for that feeling...
that feel good shit...

Love you!
_mC

Dear World

2009-06-03T01:32:00.000-07:00

At Approximately 4:32 in the morning.
I became infuriated.
I was about to doze off
then I went to this blog that I go to
clicked a single little link...
and it set my blood on fire.
I promise i've been searching my whole entire entity for it
but I cannot find any.

Cynthia only had one.

_mC

Psych 101

2009-06-01T01:25:00.000-07:00

The main problem about actually paying attention in psych class is that, when you get to that chapter about coping mechanisms, you might just run the risk of remembering what the f*ck they were talking about.
So as I find myself going through the different stages, I can't even really TRULY pass through any of them...
The result in my mind tripping over itself...
"Oh this is just my brain attempting to conjure up some logical, seemingly factual, reasoning as to why I should be completely ok"
"this is just my brain making light of something major in order to make it easier to deal with emotionally ..."
"And THIS is my brain yadda yadda yadda...."
You ever think about something so much that you tell yourself to shut the f*ck up about it?

I could ask what I, personally did wrong...
and then I could eventually just chalk this feeling and series of events up to anything I might have 'gotten away with' in the past
treat it like karma coming back to me...
....but the sad thing is... I know that thats just a coping mechanism as well...

its 4 in the morning and I just have one question that my brain can't cancel out...
What was there ever to gain?

-1

_mC

....

2009-05-30T09:03:00.000-07:00

IS THAT UNFORGIVABLE !?!

-mC

DaCia x Twitter fo' ya LIFE!

2009-05-03T19:45:00.001-07:00

Today DaCia decided to bless us with these random, yet TRUE AS F*CK statements:

www.twitter.com/itsDaCia;

Fact- If you still have a sidekick, you are wack.
Fact- Blackplanet pioneered the cyber social community idea.
Fact- EVERYONE had a blackplanet. And left when Myspace blew up.
Fact- EVERYONE had a myspace and left when Facebook blew up.
Fact- They are all on their way to twitter.
Fact- Erykah Badu>>>>Beyonce
Fact- Lauren Hill>>>>Beyonce
Fact- J-i-l-l-s-c-o-t-t-eeee-heeee from north philly ya'll>>>>Beyonce
Fact- @antoine_son is one of my favorite rappers. I play him in the car regularly along with @mc301. @antbeezydoesit can attest to this
Fact- If a boy pays me too much attention I'll think he's lame.
Fact- Size matters. I don't care what they told you in health class.
Fact- My bestfriend is my ideal as far as what I want in a man, but I would never risk our friendship.
Fact- Opinions can't be given these days. If you like something, You are a hop on or you sucking it off. If you don't, you are a hater.
Fact- Great groups of friend come in four. Sex in the City, Girlfriends, Seinfeld cast..
Fact- I never found katt williams that funny*
Fact- If a meet a boy and he doesn't think that Illmatic is one of the greatest albums in hiphop history I scratch him off my mental list
Fact- Katt Williams's act is just an extension of his role in Friday after next that was WRITTEN FOR HIM! Duhh people!
Fact- the 90's is arguably the best TV period in history. I remember rushing home just to see a TV show. TV these days ain't the same.
Fact-I get upset when boys use "pussy" or anything feminine to reference a weaker person. Shit. You try to carry a baby and pushing it out.
Fact- We say "Bless you" when someone sneezes because your heat temporarily stops beating. Sorry, I'm a science major.
RT @FUCKMETONYPOLO Fact- I SUMTIMES TURN OFF ALL THE LIGHTS IN MY HOUSE AND STARE AT MY AIR YEEZYS
Fact- The city of Miami will be underwater in 20 years de to melting of the icecaps. Thanks pollution.
Fact- I'd rather a boy talk to me about sports than to be on some cuddle lovey-dovey shit.
Fact- a boy talking to me about sports, music (hiphop/rap preferably), and sneakers will damn near have me...uh you finish the rest. lol.
Fact- DMV is holding twitter down. We outchea! Night folks!

*He's aiight!

_mC

holla @ Me on twitter:
www.twitter.com/mC301
holla @ DaCia on twitter:
www.twitter.com/itsDaCia
holla @ Ant on twitter:
www.twitter.com/Antoine_son

mC - Just a Model

2009-04-27T20:34:00.000-07:00

Inspiration = Art
I'm really not giving any more explanation than that
Ya'll know the routine, click the pic or click the links

http://www.zshare.net/audio/59291141aa54ea11/
http://www.zshare.net/audio/59291141aa54ea11/
http://www.zshare.net/audio/59291141aa54ea11/
http://www.zshare.net/audio/59291141aa54ea11/
http://www.zshare.net/audio/59291141aa54ea11/

Prod. FatJon
(I don't really know who thatis..thats just what the beat said lol)

_mC

mC- LostYou

2009-03-31T10:32:00.001-07:00

This a song that I had in the archives waiting to be heard.
I was just gonna hold on to it..but after my girl's friend Jasmin RANDOMLY came through and dropped some vocals on it...I had to mix it and let it out.
BUT THEN my pro-tools was acting crazy(read: not WORKING!!!)...so this song has gone through some tumultuous times. Because of that i feel like I should drop it..

The first verse is about wack-rapper-friends.
The second verse is a story told from first person about a guy hopelessly in love and pursuit of this love, all to no avail.
and they (the verses) are longer than standard 16s because I tend to write in a freeflowing style.

Focus production.
_mC

or just click this
http://www.zshare.net/audio/579883469557e0b4/
http://www.zshare.net/audio/579883469557e0b4/
http://www.zshare.net/audio/579883469557e0b4/
http://www.zshare.net/audio/579883469557e0b4/
http://www.zshare.net/audio/579883469557e0b4/

P.S. to friends of mine..don't feel offended..because i know ALOT of wack rappers
so...if you ARE wack..just feel like I told you the truth.

The Truth

2009-03-30T07:18:00.000-07:00

I actually am not a fan bitches...women/niggas...don't matter
and thats the truth...

ya'll feeling this Big Pooh joint?
its unimpressive to me..to be real honest

_mC

Don't

2009-03-28T12:57:00.000-07:00

Don't go and seek love...
go and seek Happiness

...

like this piff ass PacDiv video

WHENS THE NEXT TAPE DROPPING FELLAS!

anyways...what i said up there
holla @ me

_mC

oh yeah a couple tracks in post-production...

What's Good Ma! ver.1

2009-03-21T09:03:00.000-07:00

All I gotta say...is Keri Hilson

Whats Good Ma!?

In addition to that, i'm loving the music she's putting out
and our birthdays are on the same day (Oct.27), SCORPI(h)O's all day!
here the vid:

Keri Hilson (Feat. Lil Wayne) - Turnin Me On
Uploaded by BlackAndree

Happy first day of spring(yesterday), and everyone take care of themselves;;;

_mC

NewBlog ver. 9808970

2009-03-17T06:55:00.000-07:00

My layout looks just like nando's So i'm bout re-up..and drop some fresh tunes for that ass.

I like posting videos...

2009-03-08T15:32:00.000-07:00

So just vibe with this joint for a minute...

Donell Jones - Where I Wanna Be - Donell Jones

that is all

_mC

Had it all figured out...

2009-03-06T08:12:00.000-08:00

but she left me with a broken heart"
_lil Wayne

Honestly, I give a ~~fuck~~ not what anyone says... the song was iight the video catapulted it into 'my shit' category.
Why?
cause you never know how, everything can turn around

_mC

This guy...

2009-03-02T19:14:00.000-08:00

KNows what he's talking about
I miss the joint...
like the raw version of the joint...
not this facade....

but...

Loves hard

_mC

smh.

2009-02-16T18:12:00.001-08:00

:-/

_mC

QOTP
"Instead I put comeback on
fast foward to the end...(?) yeah thats my song"
_mC

I would blog

2009-02-14T07:10:00.000-08:00

But i'm making music....
trynna be so far gone...
and every cHoice that I made so far,wrong.

Valentines Day came early for me

2009-02-13T07:01:00.000-08:00

"I hate(?) you"

really?
dually noted.

_mC

Layout UPDATE

2009-02-12T12:59:00.001-08:00

The new theme is the "Many faces of"

and something funny happened to me today...
I keep realizing how 'teamless' I am...
and its like...thats how I know i'm just meant to be a solo player
shouts to everyone tho'
its all love

and shorty said I should get dreads
and I told her I would JUST because she said I should and if they don't look hot then im coming for her neck

So...
thats one cat out the bag
lets see if we can make this redesign the next

_mC

QOTP
"I be posted with my blunt and my brew..."
_Cudi

I know, I know, I know

2009-02-08T12:11:00.000-08:00

I know i was supposed to be keeping up with the daily...but that shit is hard
so sorry to my (0) readers,
but I do have a track for all (0) of you...
Brand new

mC- StuntHarder Freestyle.mp3
and you know theres gotta be a pic wit the link too

even tho' lmnhny said she didn't like how this looked...
to that i say...
BLAH!
lol

enjoy the new joint and have a good day everyone...its damn near 70 degrees where i'm at so ya'll better!

_mC

QOTP
"thinkin' that penny pinching for now
and petty pensions aint the life for me
so i treat every beat like competition...
I know..."
_mC

P.S. Flickr REALLY wants me to buy the premium account...
but little do they know i'm cheating on 'em with my OG photobucket...
::rubs chin:: metaphor for life?

Day 6

2009-02-03T22:04:00.000-08:00

Feb.03
[0]

I guess thats a record button up there...
but... we'll just call all of that [fuckery] a series of unfortunate events
remember that one...
and the flyer?
more of the same...
goodnight bloggerhythmic thingy

oh yeah...
well nevermind lemme not blow up the blogger tonight
twitter.com/mc301

_mC

QOTP
"Treat this thing right, you only got one life"
_mC

Day 5

2009-02-02T10:00:00.000-08:00

(Feb.2)
Shake It.

:'(
then...
:'(
then...
:'(
then...
:-/
then...
:-)

still fuck all of 'em tho'
and I don't blame you moonlight...I can just try to make up for mistake in my past...
if I still gotta pay for em its on me...like its always been
I do understand
as for the rest of that dumb shit...

_mC

QOTP
"Never sat on any benches...I got in games..."
_lil Wayne

Day 4.7

2009-02-01T20:46:00.001-08:00

But its ok...
because alls fair.

_mC

Day 4.5

2009-02-01T20:45:00.001-08:00

Without you...

_mC

Day 4.3

2009-02-01T20:41:00.000-08:00

I'm lost.

_mC

Day 4

2009-02-01T15:10:00.000-08:00

(Feb.1)
The Bridge is OVER

Today I worked on something that I haven't worked on in a long ass time...
a f*cking DISS song... and then a different track briefly discussing the Mirror Image f*ckery (as it shall be referred to from henceforth)...and the production on that joint? ::drumroll:: this ILL ass Dunc. instrumental...::shruggs:: I HAD TO! lol
whatever

but the DISS song is a light hearted, jab..barely peppered...just shot one time. Apparently I'm in competition to make the illest mixtape on BSU's campus..and by that I mean THERE IS NO COMPETITION...
the 'Diss' will explain it all tho'... I might even pass on the superbowl to knock these two tracks out...::looks at the time... 6:15?:: I doubt it tho'...

but umm...tell these niggas compare themselves to me after they get some rapper stripes...(and i'm not even a rapper)
---I mean drop tapes
---I mean been in freestyle battles
---I mean... had people reach out for collabs
---I mean rock a crowd...
---I mean drop

not saying that I have the most rap stripes...but i got few lol
ok, ok...I HAVE to watch the superbowl...i can't fade it!

_mC

QOTP-

"everything is shit, except you love(s)"

KanYe vs. PhonTe

2009-01-31T21:08:00.000-08:00

So along my day, a friend asks me about if I heard what PhonTe [of little brother] had to say about KanYe's '808's and Heartbreak', more specifically about his use of auto-tune.
ARTICLE

Now...I love PhonTe(nh.) and I (try to) respect everyone's opinion, but I HAVE TO COMPLETELY, TOTALLY, WHOLLY, and respectfully disagree.

Kanye wasn't singing long ass over-extended Beyonce-esque runs. KanYe always sang a little bit, but to me this album focuses on the melodies to get the points of each ballad across, and the auto-tune just reinforces the melodies, the passion comes through, and the song-writing is ill. What more can I say? [/Jay-Z]

sidenote: Are you telling me songs like Streetlights, Paranoid, Say You Will, and Heartless aren't expertly pulled off?

>>of course I don't expect a response...but

::stink face @ Phonte::
::Puts in Minstrel Show::

_mC

QOTP
"Music is just what feeling sounds like..."
_JoeyB

Day 3

2009-01-31T07:54:00.000-08:00

(Jan.31)
Tearz

I think I should blog in the morning because yesterday when I said no fuckery went on, as the day went on it turned out that no fuckery occurred, granted mild fuckery did occur, but I brushed it off. I MUST MUST MUST be coming out of my stink-mode.

Lucky Me...
sidenote: I heard the word "WAH-mbulance" the other day...
WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME I HEARD THAT?...I know ya'll never heard it cause ya'll aren't nearly as OG gamer-nerd as I am... but that made me laugh intensely.

OOOOH!
Rhymefest vs. Charles Hamilton?

QOTP
"i want a big green open field and a beautiful blue sky with slow moving clouds.
or at night on a roof top where there aren't any street lights to take away from the beauty of the stars. nature is pretty."
_lemon honey

why did I post that...because those are MY thought exactly

_mC

Day 1/Day 2

2009-01-30T06:26:00.001-08:00

(Jan.29)Say You Will?

So in times of crisis who do YOU call?
I always got somebody, and they look out for me and we chill and talk about things, So I'm thankful for that. I don't need ostentation from anybody, I really don't... its the little things that count...its just that they never seem to add up for me. Between trying to encourage my friend(s) to be creative, Promoting, and just looking out for everyone. I get called selfish? amongst other things...
Yeah imma fall back because al this giving (& being genuine) is costing me too much.

-------

(Jan.30)Brooklyn Girls

"I'm cold as ice/ all through the night"?

I'm just gonna today
go to class...eat this tasty ass burrito that's waiting for me and work on music(me)
if I get my mic and stuff I might even turn my phone off.
I'm making this post in the morning, so no fuckery has occurred today for me to blog about...but now back to this Brooklyn Girls
will update if required.
Fin.

_mC

QOTP
"Theres nothing I could ever do to fix it...
all she ever asked me for was time"
_Drake

As I...

2009-01-24T20:36:00.000-08:00

As I return from a walk outside to talk to my girl Mary, I somehow manage a phone call with Spencer, Talking to the cops!, and hiding the girl.

Thats what You call a W.

----- <- Ode lol

Pizza in the crib? check!
Drink in the crib? check!
Do I have a HOST of random/ unreleased Drake songs on my desktop at home? CHECK!

-----

"I stayed late tonight aye?
You know what happens when I stay late, right?"

-----

no offense homie..but there is MUUUCH comedy in this name...

-----

fin.

_mC

and i'm out..
QOTP (Quote of the Post):
"So what ya owed me/ Was to the old me
and yeah ya knew me/ but its a new me
so keep the loose change(2cent?)/ I'll keep a loose leaf
to document changes it gets too deep..."
~mC

STRICTLY FOR MY NINJAS

2009-01-17T00:32:00.000-08:00

...Spread Love.

Love everybody who's on this joint to death*...

_mC
P.S. I MADE A MIXTAAAAAPE LMAO!!
i'm lunchin'

*Spencer be on some other shit sometimes tho'...

2009-01-14T12:50:00.000-08:00

hello world.
pika pika.
:)

chillin&grillin. jillscott&videogames. winterbreak. timepause.
rewind.
play.
play.

rhyme.

I'm a Old man

2009-01-04T10:26:00.000-08:00

a Nigga is old as shit...
And nothing reminds you how old you are like youth
and I'm only 20...

Aside from that:
(1)PICTUReS, (2) PEOPLe, (3) PEACe, (4)mSHE

_mC

New Years Resolutions More/Less

2009-01-01T21:36:00.000-08:00

9 Positive Traits:
Heartily friendly and congenial, a hail-fellow, humanitarian instincts, a giving nature, selflessness, obligations, creative expression, readily influenced to do good works, artistic and writing talents.

9 Negative Traits:
Self-adulation, scattered interests, possessiveness, moodiness, careless with finances, wanting peer attention.

FACT :-/

New Years Resolution(s)
-Tobacco is Wacko...so no more smoking*(less)
-save $(more)
-Grades(more)
-MyouSICK(more)
-Love(less) (joke?..whateva)

_mC

*...that

I figured out my rap Philosophy

2008-12-23T00:01:00.000-08:00

...
"Flow in-fi-nitely like the memory of my nigga Biggie.. 'Baby!' "
_Jay-Z

...

_mC

mC-Medley

2008-12-22T09:34:00.000-08:00

I woke up and felt like putting some music out today
so I chopped up parts from a couple different tracks that have been laying around
some of you may have heard some of these
and some of you may have heard none of these

Save A Spot(Prod.JakeOne)-
This (verse) is basically my take on some Erykah Badu, 'See Ya Next Lifetime...' type of track, only I'd say its a little bit harder, and speaks a little (lot) more brashly about similar situations.
Well maybe this is like the mC version of Fabolous' 'Can't let You Go'
I dunno..a mix of the two really...
I hope ya'll can relate, enjoy etc, etc, this joint.

Joints(Prod.StatikSelektah/Mixed by Eddie Ca$H))-
This (verse) kinda just came out the blue, I heard the beat and wrote the track when I was at home..and on this track I just felt like talking about (down ass) girls and how/why we love them..and one in particular.
'She'll make 'Ye put some sing on it
sh*T she'll make Jay put a RING on it'

NoSavior(Prod.Dwele)-
This track basically arose out of someone telling me that they like my music, and i'm like as much as I would like to be that dude to come and take sh*t over and change the game and all that, I know i'm not that, I'm just a dude who likes to rap and make music...the 2nd verse covers the topic of people not supporting local music... complete with a shout out to ChrisBarz, IceTheVillain, MouseakaTheWaldorfPosterBoy, and XO...and lyrically its pretty simple..i just wanted to get the point across...even tho' I like (really) like the sing-songy flow of the first verse.

all chopped into one track lol

^^^Click to listen^^^

I hope Ya'll enjoy these random little cuts...
And i'm still trying to debate what type of project I want to put out
so until I do decide i'm probably just going to keep dropping joints like these

_mC
P.S.
If you just want to listen to NoSavior, I JUST threw it up on the myspace
www.myspace.com/mC301

How Could You Be So...

2008-12-18T06:42:00.000-08:00

Cold as the winter wind when it breeze yo?
Just remember that you talkin' to me though
You need to watch the way you talkin' to me, yo
I mean after all the things that we've been through
I mean after all the things we got into
Hey yo, I know of some things that you ain't told me
Hey yo, I did some things but that's the old me
And now you wanna get me back and you gon' show me
So you walk around like you don't know me
You got a new friend, well I got homies
But in the end it's still so lonely
_KanYeWest

Yesterday was not a good day at all...
Like I previously discussed, I think everyone had a 'Mike Meeting' and talked about how they could just blow my day-N-nite (Cudi)...
and then I did a lap to forget about all that
forgot about something pretty Emportant
:-/ on my part
big nasty :-/ on my part
But I aint mad...
And niggas is selfish...
But I guess love saying the same thing about me
I'm bout to just fuck with some music shit all day and clear my head

_Dad...er...mC

P.S.
Sometimes niggas really surprise me

P.P.S.
I'm Sorry, I didn't even know what to say or do to try to make anything better (seems like at these moments I never do), cause it was like I already messed up, and then where I couldve made right decisions, I made wrong(er) ones...
So i'll just come and watch TV with you instead of typing my public apology
You looked amazing tho ;-)

I'm Not Lovin You

2008-12-17T10:34:00.000-08:00

The way I wanted to
what I had to do
was run away from you
I'm in love with you
But the XXXX is wrong
and that haunted me
all the way home...

_KanYe

_mC
P.S.
and i'm in the computer lab..and the girl across from me is scratching her breast..
not trynna hide it at all..
and its pretty funny LMAO!

HLY DUMB fck....

2008-12-15T19:25:00.000-08:00

F*CK

_mC

P.S. Sometimes I even amaze ME!

F-A-D-E-D Honesty, Honestly

2008-12-14T06:52:00.001-08:00

I don't wanna say its just for the music...
its more-so just a hobby...
I don't try to explain because you wouldn't understand

I gotta talk to BF

And i'm waiting on this shit!

In the Meantime I'll just be So Far Gone...working on my own shiiit

_mC
P.S. I still love you tho'

Somebody tell me the difference

2008-12-12T10:12:00.000-08:00

Somebody tell me the difference:

Niggas kill me sometimes...
its really just a name... and mind control...
So hand over your wallets
(as I'm wearing a HUNDREDS Hoodie and a HUNDREDS vest at the top of my blog*)

Matta fact...that just gave me an ill ass idea for a song...

I think I like stuff....but I hate materialism
I've finally figured it out

_mC

*[defense: in all honesty i just like the pieces, they just happen to have been made by the same stylish muf*ckas...not my fault they make dope shit lol]

(blank)

2008-12-09T22:18:00.000-08:00

I'm at a fork in the road
but I can't even function when I think about it...
So I could try to reach a conclusion
but, I know its all an allusion
Curtain call.
_mC

Some things you might've missed

2008-12-09T09:20:00.000-08:00

I was thinking about how retardedly dope this verse i wrote was
but then i was like..a young man/woman would have to be on some OTHER sh*t to catch everything I mean...
so I linked all the appropriate sources...
and yes I thought of all of this while constructing these bars...
and yes I do that its dope as sh*t...

Random 001
----------
So far gone in the flow
Geronimo / Geronimo
rap with a warrior's Spirit
niggas just wanna know
if the legend lives up
the bars is living proof
but proof died
so the bars are living truth
I'm smoking / Smoking
like 'Fuck what Commercial / Commercial say'

so King so Wallace...I feel like i'm ColdPlay
so much of em doubted i'm feeling like old jay
but I gotta make it hot, I guess i'm Nicole Wray
guess if the code say I
gotta crossover like A.I.
I know I could if I was Wayne high / Wayne High
and with the verse I could probably take Game's spot
its all a game...hip-hop is gamespot
....so for the those who listening
I aint trynna be played by a sony system
just...
played by a sony system
or better yet a bose...so they clearly hear the wisdom...

...
smmfh

_mC

P.S. [wayne] Muthafucka i'm iilllll! [/wayne]

F-A-D-E-D Honesty, Honestly

2008-12-08T19:12:00.000-08:00

Usually I wouldn't blog these random thoughts
but refer to the the title.
I NEVER hear from this broad unless she got a problem
and I NEVER talk to this broad cause she never listen
so i've concluded..that you are indeed WACK...
as sh*t...
the end.

_mC

The 'What if..?', 'Maybe' and 'Why?' Chronicles Vol.1

2008-12-06T09:59:00.000-08:00

If i was angry i'd just claim that it was all a game
or if i was confused, I'd just say that fate has lost me in its shuffle
or if I was hurt, I'd say that Love was cruel...
but since i'm ___[Stuck, Happy, Good, Fine]_____
then I'll just say things are exactly as they are meant to be
....Maybe

I owe Lexi, Spencer, and Antoine a LOT!

_mC

P.S.
it still might just be all a game lol

Short and Sweet (read: Sour)

2008-12-05T09:04:00.004-08:00

I don't like Greek life.

_mC

P.S. Greeks had AFRICAN slaves
F*ck is anybody gonna tell me after that?

PFA

2008-12-04T10:18:00.000-08:00

Positive Female Attention?

This is probably a little known fact about myself, really it is, but I LOVeLoveLOVELOVELOVE women. As much as i want to say that women have always felt the same about me, its for DAMN sure not true (understatement) and as a result of that, I feel like I have a certain mindstate whenever women find me, something I do, or something mC related(ie. my swag LOL) attractive.
and that is SHOCKK!
I'm always in a state of shock!

"they think i'm being cocky but i'm only being honest"
_Drake

and I honestly look in the mirror and think to myself... 'hey, not a bad looking guy'
but its still like "...WORD!...IM SYCED!"
...when I find out that other people think the same, and by other people I mean women.

Is anybody else ever just shocked as sh*t when people find them attractive or does everyone really have this "I know i'm the sh*t, so why WOULDN'T people think i'm the illest [insert what you refer to yourself as] on the planet" attitude?
Maybe everyone puts on a good act and I've been fooled.
or maybe... not being the proverbial 'hot sh*t' when i was younger has led to me being messed up in the head a little bit.
LET ME KNOW!

---------

Random:
AM I A CUTIE?

Don't Even Answer that
just know...if you thought 'yes', or 'kinda'...or 'a little bit...'
I'm SHOCKED! SHOCKED @ the answer! lol

Peace and blessings

_mC
P.S. Purely F*ing Awesome!

Brothers.

2008-12-01T19:26:00.000-08:00

Disagree.
Miscommunicate.(?)
Compete.
Fight.
Ride.
Laugh.
Chill.
Smoke.
Party.
Listen.
All that sexy shit
So...keep ya head up son
you'll be iight
oh yeah..and line it up son..don't let it surround you.

Fin.
_mC

Mi
oh yea...we'll be back by the way
don't think shit is safe.

NEW!...mC Blog Ver. 3.0.Raw

2008-12-01T10:21:00.000-08:00

So I'm starting over..because my blog makes ME go "yaaaawwwwn"
I'm not taking pictures like I wanted to
I'm not focused on music like I'm should be (Mel remember what I said tho' right?)
and...I think it starts with my blog (insane logic...yes)
i'll still drop some stills...
but for now
i'm just going to get on here and blog my thoughts..why?
because I can...
So I introduce the
'The mC Bloggerhythm Thingy
name = I'm mC + I blog w/ rhythm + this is my thing(y)!

oh yeah..and its gonna be RAW
but you'll see what I mean
check for a new post soon...
And by soon i mean tonite
time Allowing.

-mC

Artist- Mouse aka The Waldorf Poster Boy

2008-11-25T21:00:00.000-08:00

:: via www.mC-bsides.blogspot.com ::

Spits Crack
here's an example:

KanYeWest ft. Mouse Aka The Waldorf Poster Boy- Say You Will (Rmx)

^^CLICK PIC FOR LINK TO SONG!^^

(I tried to do some justice with the photo-editing skills)

www.myspace.com/igrewup
^^ click that link too

and then tell him what you think by leaving it here
or..wherever

::end::

Next up is probably gonna be DOZA, as soon as I get some new CRACK from him...(pause)

Supa mC

2008-11-16T20:51:00.000-08:00

:: from www.mc-bsides.blogspot.com ::

Turn this shit up

-mC
mC.I.D!

mC-Misunderstood.mp3

2008-11-08T13:49:00.001-08:00

::from www.mC-Bsides.blogspot.com

^^Click to Listen^^

Girl saying our time aint time enough
rhyme saying my grind aint grind enough
friends saying...well they ignoring my phone calls
So all i really got is there for walls
no..forewarning for all this storming
no smiles all I can form is foreman...
so ::no it aint all good, i'm just so misunderstood::
styles I gave away and they so ungrateful
rhyme over they head so they underrated dude
love is fake too,
so i'm just waiting for niggas to unmask
without a facial
Irony, cause good times I can't relate to..
why?
cause Good Times I CAN relate to
and my lil mama's more like Rihanna
and her favorite song seems to be unfaithful
WAIT!
not in the way that i'd kick her out
but more like how it was in 'Take A Bow'
so ::no it aint all good, so i'm sooo misunderstood::
Wondering why, nobody sees things quite like I do
like how you betray me and I stood beside you, do...
Julius breed Brutus inside dudes,
maybe success is too much of an eye-full
I, never gave ya'll a reason for hate, besides a couple dates
showing up a lil late
but if I had food then ya'll had a plate but
to my mindstate dudes just can't relate
so maybe i'm just a Jake, arrested in my development
maybe they indians threatened by my settlement
but its like I only do it for the betterment
yet, trust? I dunno where the hell it went...
maybe its just that people grow apart
some grow cold, other grow a heart
some grow wise others just grow smart
some begin again, others don't know where to start
I mean, some intentions fall short of invention
dudes thats honorable, get no mention...
so it aint all good
i'm just so misunderstood...
....
....
but its all good, understand me? I wish ya'll would
no!, I see platinum when its all wood
and be cool when others say I should
not be Travolta// and trust my words aint trynna insult ya
but when i feel people trynna get over
the rhymes that builds helps me get over
a point
my point: the world not getting me
is a gift cause a gift its given me,
so i spit and descript so vividly
though i still can't fix this picture we
call a friendship, so fuck fake niggas
but you helped me so, its ok nigga
girlie like "I know I can't stay with ya..."
shiiiiiit, that just paint for another picture
so I see the silver lining
if not life, i'll be good at rhyming
blacksheep, but i'm still good at shining,
so all this coal has just given me Diamonds...
So its all good, understand me? I wish yall woooould...
....I'm just so misunderstood...

_mC

::resumes not caring::

Untitled.mp3 (1)

2008-11-03T10:18:00.001-08:00

::from www.mC-bsides.blogspot.com::
Wassup world...
Since this is the Music blog I'mma keep it short on the words
So here is the first track
which isn't even MY joint,just a collab track that I'm on...but i figured I might as well jump the blog off with this little yameanerie, something slight.

^^Click to Listen^^

Feel free to debate which verse was the best.
Order- (1)Doza, (2)STix, (3)mC, (4)Supreme

P.S. It doesn't even have a title..we'll get to all that later,
More Tracks coming soon.

Michael's Blog x Photoshoot Preview

2008-10-26T12:41:00.000-07:00

First off...a couple pics I shot for my homie Shawn
for various hip-hop/facebook/promotion/myspace purposes:

There's literally hundreds more but I figured if he's on your radar then i'm sure you'll see them pop up different places.
*PROMOTION*
MyspaceMusicLink: www.myspace.com/igrewup
*endPROMOTION*

And Secondly
I've had a couple of conversations about the nature of content of my blog
and some people would like to know a little bit more about me, or so it seems. But I'm old enough to keep some things to myself. Honestly, I'm too honest and too open of a person to really keep a blog detailing my different thoughts, actions and emotions. I also know enough so that I don't feel an overbearing sense of hopelessness, or pointlessness that would lead my blog to read like some random catalog of teenage angst published for the world to see, plus I already did that ::chuckles::[(c)Xanga and/or LiveJournal].

In addition to that, there are so many things that are better left unsaid, and because of that I've made a conscious decision to blog in a specific way, where if I were to look at the different posts, I'd know exactly whats going on in my life, my head, and with everyone else who's close to me at the time. I take random, unscripted photographs of LIFE and my favorite ones make the blog. This isn't intended to be a photoblog in the sense that, these are beautiful pictures that I've taken, because (my) LIFE isn't always beautiful, life gets blurred, life gets covered up, life has its secrets, LIFE has its joys and its pains. So to all (3) of my 'readers', I'm sorry if I can't divulge every detail of my life (read: cause drama like shit), but this is, indeed, just a looking glass...just a glance at the whole picture.

Thank You, and I hope anyone who's ever stumbled my little piece of web real estate enjoyed something that they saw here, or gained something from it.

Sincerely,
mC